Philosophy Paper

This was the last assignment I turned in. Not the final paper, I dropped the class. Turns out I couldn't wrap my head around the idea of why I should give a shit if Plato thought my computer has the Form Squareness... In the face of modern science, that's completely ridiculous. I can see why back then it might of made sence to quantify things any way you could, but now, it's not worth the time.

Does the universe have a purpose? Does life have a purpose?

I think that the idea of a purpose is entirely made up. It’s a thing that people made up as we went along to quantify our existence. We realized fairly early on that we weren’t quite like other creatures on the planet. We tried to explain this. We tried to explain events. “Why did that just happen?” “It happened because of this.” “Well what should I do about it?” Human beings have a never ending compulsion to reason. Whether or not the reasoning methods of a particular person make sense isn’t important.

The simple fact of the matter is that the universe just is. Life just is. You can play out a seemingly endless game of cause and effect to ascertain the “the beginning”, or whatever you want to call it. But it doesn’t change the fact that stuff exists. If you were to ask my mother why the universe existed or if life has a purpose she’d say, “To make you ask questions”. Now this devilishly annoying response, which I’ve been getting for nearly a quarter of a century, might be more profound than I had originally allowed for.

I find it extremely difficult to think that an all powerful being or collective of similar inbred beings, see Greek/Roman mythology, would ever get it in their head to create something for us to contemplate endlessly. I can think of a million other things I would rather do with my time than think of ways to confuse other people, or start wars…

What I do appreciate about my mother’s tagline is that it makes more sense than trying to answer the question of “why does it exist”. More interesting to me is the question of, “Why do you care?” I don’t care if a rock exists or why Chinese people used to think foot binding was sexy. Why does it matter? Contemplating questions of the past makes sense. It allows us to evaluate our experience and learn from our mistakes. But wondering why the universe exists doesn’t really make a lot of sense, it’s an unanswerable question. Just as soon as you think you’ve got it, someone else tells you, you don’t, and you’re back to square one. You can’t truly know you have the answer unless everyone is in agreement, but this presents another issue, “does that rock really exist after all?” Since everyone agreeing is as difficult as getting ten people trying to agree on pizza toppings, we’re all going to go hungry.

Dream

I had THE strangest dream last night. Cast includes but is not limited to the following:

Me
Shane
Samuel L Jackson
Tanya
Hayden Panettiere aka Clair Benet
My Mom

There were more people but I think the list so far illistrates the strangeness.

As with most other dreams, I woke up out of this one and it was the world around me that didn't seem real. Unfortunatly, I don't remember the whole thing. What I do remember is the Haden part.

The scene starts off with her as a baby. She's being watched by a babysitter and everything is cool. Scene cuts to the end of the night when the parents come home and the babysitter is gone. Parents freak out, blah, blah, blah. Fast forward. Haden is about 7. We come to find out she's really some sort of freaky alien creature that happens to be an excelent swimmer. She proceeds to run around eating people and somehow always seems to swim away before we catch her. I woke up later in the story when she was the Haden we all know and love. By this time she had "control" over her urge to eat people though. I really wish I could remember more, but this by itself is freaking weird.

TMO

don't ask me what the hell that stands for, because i'm not sure that anyone knows. and if they do, i don't care.

I got my TMO today. My 'puter is up and running with my thump thumps. I'm all giddy about that one. They were the first thing I unpacked. Now all I need is a couple of cables for my other screen. But I'm totally loving having two computers again. So much better. I also got my books and my skates, which I'm taking out tomorrow. OH! and my movies!!! Super stoked about that one. But mainly, I think I'm mostly excited about having music again. I really feel like part of me is missing when I don't have my tunes. And my toy helichopter... Yea, I'm awesome.

Mirrors

I figure that since I went and saw it twice, I should do a post on it. Even though, I'm completely convinced that it's not in theaters back home anymore.

It actually wasn't good enough to see twice, please refer to The Dark Knight in case you're confused on what's good enough. It was an accident. I went with a friend to the movies and she picked the movie, I had honestly forgotten that I'd seen it until the first scene. That's how much of an impression it made.

If you read my post on Midnight Meat Train, you'll know how much I love shitty little horror flicks. This one didn't quite cut it. It wasn't shitty enough to be endearing and it wasn't good enough to wait for on DVD.

Keefer Sutherland plays the main, a formally undercover cop that shot a police officer and gets a job at a burned down department store as a night security guard. Crazy shit starts happening with the mirrors and eventually every reflective object he comes in contact with.

First off, I don't like loose ends. Unless you are making a sequel, they are totally annoying. They never explain what the circumstances were with the shooting. I got all the way to the end of the movie wondering what happened. They write the whole thing off with "it was an accident". That's the only explanation you get. annoying...

The deaths were mediocre at best. Although I'm sure that if I were a ghost in a mirror I probably wouldnt fuck around either. Just get it over with, right? I was dissapointed to see Amy Smart go so quickly, but I guess they had to do something to make Keefer stand out. I think the best one was... Oh wait, there were only two, if you don't count the nun.

Other than that, it wasn't bad or good, it was fairly predictable though. I'm sure you can even get the ending in the first ten minutes if you really think about it. Just another reason for me to get a small popcorn and a large coke. Which is absolutely required.

Still alive

busy busy busy. I haven't posted on here in so long I almost had to type the url into my browser.

I've got some good news though... As you may read, I got Spore in the mail yesterday. *Totally awesome* I've also got almost all the movies I ordered from Amazon. I'm still waiting on The Adventures of Barron Munchausen (phonetic spelling), I'll be sending a nasty gram about that in a minute. Oh, and all my stuff from Germany is going to be getting here on Thursday!!! Maybe I'll get to take my skates out before the weather gets crazy. Lets see if I can post some other stuff too...

Spore Cometh

I feel a bit noobish. It's not like I haven't be salavating with anticipation over this game or anything. I can't believe that I didn't order it as soon as it came out. But it's finally on it's way! Hopefully my computer gets here before the game does. Can you imagine the frustration of having one of the most highly anticipated games ever and no computer? I would be reduced to a childlike state in no time. You could probably find me in a dark corner playing with the box, making little creature sounds, taping on evolutionary advances when I think I've earned enough dna points.

IT'S ALIVE!!1!

I just called HP to check the status on my laptop. The very same laptop that I spent nearly $2000 bucks not 6 months ago. For some mysterious reason, one of the hard drives died on me. So after parting with a month and a half worth of my hard earned wages, waiting two months for it to be built and shipped to Frankfurt, and being without it for nearly two months for the repairs, I've just been informed that it should be shipped back to me by next Monday. Just another two weeks after that and I'll be back online! Assuming of course that the internet at the house gets fixed. As I understand it, it's going to take some serious voodoo to make that work. But we'll see. If there is one thing that Marines are good at, it's getting around problems. I'm not sure how I'd get around simply not having a connection, but I'm sure it's nothing a credit card and some orange juice can't fix. ;)